I have been staring at a blank page on a computer screen, watching a black line blink at me, and waiting for the words to strike for six days now.
I am sadly and utterly in a “funk”. It could be the fact that it’s the last quarter of my freshman year and I am ready for the sun-soaked days of summer, that my body cannot handle another week of being sick, or that my to-do list seems to be growing larger day by day. But whatever the reason, my entire being is absolutely uninspired.
As a creative person, these funks put me in one of my most vulnerable states. My entire mindset changes, my motivation slowly begins to diminish, and all I want is to be able to write something down on a page. But, I cannot.
The current funk I am experiencing has left me realizing that they are now occurring more often than I need them to be. The more I thought about just why this may be, the more I realized that it may because I do the same thing every single day.
Each morning I wake up and start the day off with a bit of mental math by figuring out how many days there are until Friday. Regardless of the answer, I still hit the snooze button on my alarm. By the time I have arrived at school, two or three coffee stains have found a home on my shirt, and my brain is slowly beginning to register that I am in public, so it is inappropriate to whine about how much I do not want to be at school. Then I spend a good 7 hours of my day learning things that either make complete sense or none at all. Death by swimming follows closely after. I then start the dreaded homework and eat a dinner that normally consists of leftovers. Eventually, I find myself lying in bed and realizing that I have to do the same thing all over again the next day.
The monotony of life has obviously taken me as captive. Lack of variety and any sort of change constantly threatens my creativity and inspiration, which invites these funks right through the door.
When it comes to funks, you have to give in in order to get out. It’s okay to give in to the lack of comfort and stability. Acknowledging why you feel the way you feel is usually what helps push you out of the funk. It is important to allow yourself to understand what put you in that state of mind in the first place. Once you find it, you are able to embrace it, grow from it, and slowly work your way out of it.
Funks are annoying and always seem to come at the most inconvenient times. They cause so much confusion and uncertainty. But it is in being uncertain when we are able to learn things about ourselves and our relationships with other people.
I hope that my ideas inspire you to accomplish whatever you need to.
Love, Valerie x